Author Archives: theboyfriend2010

It makes sense and it makes no sense.

One of her notebooks was completely filled with the beginning is the end and the end is the beginning. the beginning is the end and the end is the beginning. the beginning is the end and the end is the … Continue reading

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The Ghosts in the Wall

I finally had time to read more entries today. Most of them were quite boring except for these two. March 24, 1999 I was working on a patch of soil for tomato plants when something fell from the sky, barely … Continue reading

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Stanley

I found him inside a red tent on skid row.  I didn’t have to talk to him to know that he was right for the job.  He was the right size and fucked up just enough.  When I explained how … Continue reading

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no wishes, no affections, a mere heart of stone

I was five and I remember hating him because of his face.  I could tell he was weak and I loathed him before I was old enough to know that we’re all animals and that our survival depends on how … Continue reading

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You’re not like me, God didn’t make you out of flesh and bone.

In my late twenties I suffered from anxiety attacks and when I told my grandmother she told me not to worry.  She said the anxiety would go away as soon as I turned 30. The complex things are eventually forgotten, … Continue reading

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Not even the red sky answers when I ask about you.

We had a fight after he found out I made an appointment with my doctor.  He tried to make me feel guilty for not trusting that he could take care of me; for doubting that he was committed to making me … Continue reading

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Madness Rules This Land

I suspected it was petty to want romantic love when men with guns walk around shooting children in the head.  I also suspected the man in my house was like those men outside.  Still, I wanted it. Stupidity trumps everything.

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