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Author Archives: theboyfriend2010
I was five and I remember hating him because of his face. I could tell he was weak and I loathed him before I was old enough to know that we’re all animals and that our survival depends on how … Continue reading
In my late twenties I suffered from anxiety attacks and when I told my grandmother she told me not to worry. She said the anxiety would go away as soon as I turned 30. The complex things are eventually forgotten, … Continue reading
We had a fight after he found out I made an appointment with my doctor. He tried to make me feel guilty for not trusting that he could take care of me; for doubting that he was committed to making me … Continue reading
I suspected it was petty to want romantic love when men with guns walk around shooting children in the head. I also suspected the man in my house was like those men outside. Still, I wanted it. Stupidity trumps everything.
The smells of smoke and gasoline mixed with the stench of cow manure. I couldn’t move and I wasn’t in pain. The car was out of sight but the sound of the horn got louder and louder so I tried … Continue reading
I had seen him walking and pushing his cart a few times. I wanted to offer him some help, food or money, but every time he slipped away; disappeared around the corner. I never spoke to him until that day. … Continue reading
The tragedy is all over the newscasts. On Christmas Eve, an upper-middle class Connecticut home went up in flames. Three little girls and their grandparents died in the fire. Only their mother/daughter and her boyfriend survived. As she tried to … Continue reading
What I lost when I accepted my relationship with him was only one of my fabrications, is bitter. What I gained, unbearable. Now, I must find a way to live with the bitter and the unbearable; the loss and knowledge … Continue reading
I thought it was something but it turned out to be nothing. It took me a while to realize it and I never thought about it until I was stuck on that road, driving, next to him. The second it … Continue reading
No one will ever know how important that love was to me.